I want to drop everything and just travel the world with someone who wants to just as much as I do
Look around and find your dreams come true with me 💙
Everyday is a new day they all say. Everyday is basically the same day but happens in a different way. I wake up moody all the time. Sometimes I think so much that my heart keeps beating so fast. Then it starts to hurt a little. I know my anxiety isnt as bad as before. So it couldn’t be that or maybe it’s coming back again. I have so much anger in me. I have become this person I don’t recognize anymore. I’m just so antisocial and I’m so introverted now a days. I keep ignoring people, and when I don’t respond people get annoyed or they just spam the shit out of me. Then I get angry because they don’t understand me. I usually just talk to one person that’s always there for me. I still feel bad for not being able to talk to others. If I don’t respond obviously there is something going on with me. I don’t mean to ignore you it’s just how I get at times. I usually reply back to my messages when I am okay and better. On top of that things at home are just rough. I want to live my own life already. It’s kind of sad being 21 and still dependent on my parents. I need to finish school and just move away. Tired of being cooped up in this prison. I also need to find a job so I can manage to live on my own and pay off my loans. Gosh I wish I was still in Georgia working. I made enough to spend or do whatever I want. Concerts, parties, and just chilling with people was just the best. If I could find work I would be satisfied but I am so not working in a restaurant. Customers there are mad crazy lol. It makes me hate people even more. I mean if you actually work at a restaurant and see what the servers go through then you can talk lol. Unless they are mad lazy then kick their ass bahahaha. Yeah anyway I’m just tired of everything. Being under so much pressure it’s just driving me crazy and also just pushed away the people I care about. bleeeeeh life just sucks, but i’m living through it day by day.
Too much to even process my thoughts right now since this is one hell of jumbled thoughts put together that I am dealing with x.x. gg
sorta wanna die sorta wanna kiss you sorta wanna get my shit together sorta wanna lose twenty pounds in a month??
Sometimes you stop talking to someone because you keep telling yourself that if they wanted to talk to you, they would.